SUICIDE... BULLYING... DEPRESSION...
BEEN THERE, DONE THAT!
Other people's stories... APRIL 2000
"I am brandon's best friend and I your saw your wed
page and brandon told me how you e-mailed him. First off I want to say
I am sorry for what you had to go though. your story touched me deeply
and my prays go out to you and your family. I am in the same boat as brandon
I can't get Eric off my mind every time I see some one they look like him
and I am like is that Eric and the I realize it isn't. I suffer of depression
too. I am on medications for it and it helps but I went for three years
trying to kill myself but I got the help I needed and I am doing better
then I was. I wonder why but we will never no I tell myself. I miss him
so much we had this routine we would go in the bath room at 4th per and
check our hair together and it was so fun we would have water fights and
I just think its 4th per and I go in the bathroom but he is not there then
I start crying. I need so tips like you gave brandon. thanks for your time
, again I send my deepest condolences to you and your family. if we could
stay in touch that would be
April 27, 2000 - Dona says...
"I AM SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR SON'S SUICIDE. MY SON
JASON COMMITTED SUICIDE SEPTEMBER 3, 1999 3 DAYS AFTER HIS 27TH BIRTHDAY.
I DO NOT KNOW WHY HE DID IT, BUT HE WAS BIPOLAR AND WOULD NOT TAKE HIS
MEDICATIONS. I FOUGHT WITH HIM SINCE HE WAS 8 YEARS OLD TO TAKE HIS
MEDICATIONS AND GO TO COUNSELING. HE WAS HOSPITALIZED MANY
TIMES BECAUSE OF SUICIDE THREATS. HE WAS ALWAYS IN TROUBLE
IN SCHOOL AND WAS DIAGNOSED AS ADHD. I DON'T
April 27, 2000 - Jessica says...
"I was looking at your website today, and I found it very inspiring and thoughtful. I am sorry about your son. I lost my fiancée last year to suicide. It has been very difficult to keep my head up, but I have come a long way this year. I moved and started over... I moved to Florida, where the sun shines everyday, and my face is always towards the light. I am young, 27, and I know that things will get better and better in time. My family continues to be a great source of strength. I just wanted to say thank you for your story, I know that your memorial and links have helped a lot of people. Thank you. I know that Jared and Michael are in eternal peace... they are with us in spirit. Thank you again for your contribution to us"
April 27, 2000 - Jerry says...
"What a wonderful website. As a psychiatric malpractice
attorney, I am all too familiar with the pain and grief that comes in the
wake of a suicide. This is such a tremendous tribute to Jared.
But equally important, it's great to see you doing something to help prevent
suicide and to provide a resource for those who may need it."
April 26, 2000 - Brandon says...
"Hello, my name is Brandon and I with hundreds of other
peers have lost a close friend that everyone loved due to suicide. He was
only 14 and the hardest thing is the question why? He was the most popular
kid at school, lots of friends, a whole life in front of him, he was looking
forward to high school football and driving. I looked at your web page
and it really touched me. As much as Eric's death has affected me as a
friend, I can't imagine what it's like for a mother and that's why I congratulate
you on your web page and how you seem to look at your situation. But the
thing I can't do is move on, because Eric's death is always on my mind.
It was Feb. 28 when he left us and I try to move on and get over it, but
I just can't. I read the 30
suggestions page, but I don't think they'd work. I've already tried
a lot of things, but
April 26, 2000 - Donna (a grandmother) says...
"Hi! Please forgive me if you are not the
correct one to whom I should direct this correspondence; I am just beginning
this research and you are my starting point.
April 25, 2000 - Jamie says...
"Hi. ...I was reading about your son and
it was really a touching story. I suffer from depression also and
have tried to commit suicide many times. I spend hours looking and
web pages about teens that have been sucessful... i guess as a way to show
me that im not alone.
April 25, 2000 - Michelle says...
"I am sorry to read about your son. Just recently my little brother also committed suicide. It is a terrible thing that no one should go through but we have. I just wanted to say that it is a wonderful website and a great tribute to your son. Once again I'm sorry for your loss, keep strong and never forget. Love always"
April 24, 2000 - Mehdi says...
"hi my name is mehdi, first of all i would like to say i'm sorry for what happened to your son jared, it's really touching. i have a question for you (if i may of course): ...what did lead him to do that? was it a depression or it was something else since he was hyperactive as a toddler? please, if you can, e-mail me back i will greatly appreciate it. yours" (Jared had depression caused, triggered, from an assault in his Middle School by a bully)
April 23, 2000 - "PartyA" says...
"i was a teen caught up in suicide and your story has helped the most in life"
April 20, 2000 - Liz says...
"I want to thank you for creating the Jaredstory web
site. For the longest time I have been feeling extremely depressed but
im not exactly sure why. I have a wonderful, supportive family, school
is going okay, and my friends are great. I have extremely low self esteem
though and feel so worthless and useless. I noticed my behavior had
changed, but I couldn't control it. When I suspected something was wrong
I tried to explain what I had been going through to my parents, they just
shrugged it off and told me it was just a faze and i'll get over it, by
this time I was losing it. I tried to end my life by overdosing, I would
take about 50 different pills and all
April 17, 2000 - lives in Mesa AZ says...
"That's a real neat web sight you have there. I wish I had this computer 3 yrs. ago when my 14 yrs. old son shot himself. He had depression too. It's hard, isn't it? Especially so young. Looks like you may be helping alot of young kids out there."
April 15, 2000 - Sweetbullet says...
"TODAY I TOOK SOME PILLS... AND WENT TO SLEEP.
SINCE I HAVE AWAKEN I HAVE FELT OUT OF PLACE. MY HEART IS QUITE AND
MY MIND IS STILL. ...DO YOU SOMETIMES FEEL LIKE YOU'RE TALKING TO
YOURSELF? ...IT FEELS TERRIBLE AND IT HURTS. I FEEL SAD RIGHT
NOW AND I FEEL OUT OF CONTROL. I WISH I KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH
ME . ...I AM CRYING AND I CAN'T STOP AND I WANT TO BE ALONE.
I JUST WANT TO LEAVE SOMEWHERE AND GET LOST. ...RIGHT NOW I AM ON
April 15, 2000 - Kanwardeep says...
"After death as you have mentioned in your website that spirit doesn't die, So is that spirit put into the shape of animals, ants or of human being only; I am not a christian" (I referred Kanwardeep to The Meaning of Life section)
April 14, 2000 - In Sorrow says...
"I just lost a good friend who played on the baseball team my father coaches and I was trying to find the words to comfort the team and in doing this I came across your webpage dedicated to your beloved son. It helped me deal with the loss I feel inside! You do not know me but I am very grateful to you, Thank You for sharing your story with others. May God continue to Bless You, A person in sorrow, now at peace.."
April 12, 2000 - Aida says...
"Your website is incredible. I put in favorites that way I can always go back and check out the new things you put up. Putting your son's story on the internet has really helped. Let me tell you that this is not the first time I've thought about suicide. I haven't committed yet because I never really know which way to go. My dad has guns and knives, we have plenty of pills all around the house. but reading your story (or rather your sons story) gave me something to think about. I just want to say thank you for letting all of us be a part. Going to that website was a tremendous help!"
April 11, 2000 - Anonymous says...
"Hi, I am a 15 year old Hispanic and I am a Sophomore in high school. Ever since 8th grade I have thought of suicide too many times. I've never told anyone and now, after reading facts of suicide on your website I am scared. I realized that I can relate to more than half of it. I have attempted suicide twice by cutting my left wrist and cutting into my left upper chest until I bled. I hurt myself other times by cutting my right lower leg and punching my left arm until I had a bruise. I can't tell my friends or my family. I did tell my mom that I thought of suicide but she didn't say much. I feel worthless more than once a month. I don't have a boyfriend, I am involved in Junior Varsity softball and I have a great sense of humor. I always feel like I never have nothing to offer. I want to know how I can get help fast. Thank you." (I gave her some information in the 'About Suicide' page)
April 10, 2000 - Nicole says...
"Sorry I haven't gotten back to you on how I did on
my project. I got a 90 on the written report and a 100 on the presentation.
My teacher wrote on the back of my project:
April 9, 2000 - Maryanne says...
"I went to your web site. It was very moving. But I my self have been feeling very suicidal and now decided to talk to someone that i trust and get help. Thanks to you thanks"
April 8, 2000 - 'Littleboy' says...
"IM doing a research paper on teen age suicide, for my final senior project at school, I picked the topic because 2 of my friends have killed them self. One very recently, 2 days ago, I like your page a lot because it can help people deal with all the feeling that come with losing someone to suicide."
April 8, 2000 - 'Hopeless' says...
"Hi, I really feel suicidal right now and i know suicide isn't the answer to my problems but i feel like it is the only way out. I am in high school, i'm a grade 9 and from Ontario. I'm having a fight with my friend and it's really petty. she's getting everyone into it even people from other schools. I just want it to end. But they keep going on and on . I've told them that i don't have time for this kinda stuff and to leave me alone, but they keep coming back for more and more. And each time it hurts more and more. I'm also going out with this guy and we used to all be friends. He still is friends with them, but now that were in a fight their trying to brake us up. He means so much to me that i'd give up everything for him. we almost broke up the other day because of them, and now i know that their gonna convince him to break up with me. I have talked to him about this a few times. And he says he wants to be with me, and he doesn't care what they say, but i still believe that they are going to convince him. I don't know what to do. Because now they are telling me that they watch everything i do and there gonna beat my ass in. I don't know who to turn to for advice. My friends say that they'll back me up but i don't think they will. i don't want to fight. I just want everything to be right. What should i do to make it better?? hopeless" (It was after this letter that I obtained the Harassment Survey and put it online)
April 7, 2000 - Hope says...
"...I'm 15 from Mississippi. I read your web page about your son and I'm so sorry I know how it is to lose someone you love so much especially to suicide. You know I say that but I still think about suicide myself and that scares me a lot. I just wanted to write and tell you that I'm sorry and I will pray for you and your family I know that your son was about my age and I know the pain that he was feeling too well ...I have a way to go. There is so much in my mind Take care and God Bless you"
April 5, 2000 - Kim says...
"Hello, im a 17 year old high school student and im
doing a report on suicide. I was surfing the web and came across your web
site. I think its great that you did it in memory of your son. I enjoyed
and all the fun things he liked to do. I really wanna use his story for
my report. I think it would touch my class mates alot. If u would rather
me not talk about
April 5, 2000 - Lillian says...
"I will use your advice on the books
you suggested. I already looked at your web page. As for
my best friend, Melissa, I already know what is causing her depression.
It's her family life. She was a crack baby, she had an identical
twin sister that died at 4 months old from neglect. Also she was
molested by her moms boyfriend when she was 12 years old (now almost 19,
she hasn't seen or spoken to her mom since but her mom married this guy
about 1-2 years ago. She is learning to deal with it now. She is
learning to deal with a lot of things. She was in Philadelphia, PA
for the longest time so it was hard for us to keep in contact but now
April 4, 2000 - Melody says...
"I just found your web page. I lost my son to suicide five years ago. I must say I will never get over it... I've only found some ways to get through the grief day by day. I think that what you are doing is good for you and good for others. I have basically suffered alone because I feel as if no one could understand. Thanks for what you are doing."
April 4, 2000 - Lillian says...
"I am sorry to hear about your son. I was wondering if I could ask for your help. There are 2 reasons why: First, I have a best friend who has been in 6 different hospitals over 3 years because she has depression and has attempted suicide many times, and secondly I am doing a research paper for college on the effects of suicide on other people. If it is not too much trouble, I was wondering if you help me by telling me on how you dealt with the loss and how it effected your life as well as the rest of family. This would not only help me with my paper but it would also help me to help my best friend, Melissa. I am basically one of the only people she has to count on and I am trying my best to help her through it. If you could please share your story with me I could share it with her. Your help would be very much appreciated. Thank you for your time." (I referred Lillian to The Dealing With Grief page in JaredStory.com)
April 4, 2000 - Shelby says...
"I handed in the report, three days later my teacher
came to me and said that no one else's report touched him. I was so proud.
It included your story, which is now a part in my heart. My teacher told
me that he was going to give me 30 points extra credit. Thanks to you I
finally got the A I've been waiting for the whole year. We
didn't get the actual grades for our papers yet, but the extra credit was
put onto last quarters grades. We brought home our report cards yesterday.
It was the first time in so long that I was this proud of myself, my accomplishments,
and you helped me get that A. I keep thinking back to my decision, of life
...not death and each
April 4, 2000 - Kristy says...
"Hi, my name is Kristy and I am a sophomore in college.
I am taking a death and dying class this semester and I am doing a paper
on suicide. No, I am not thinking about suicide or anything, suicide
is just an interesting topic and I want to learn a little more about it.
Anyway, I need to know more about the grieving processes and the bereaved.
If there is any sites you may know about that deal with the grieving processes
I would greatly appreciate you sending them to me. I really enjoyed
your webpage, it was very well done. I am sorry to hear about your
son, but you seem to be a strong women and I am proud you have gotten through
your loss. Like I said, if you have any info. can you please send
it to me? Thanks so much."
April 3, 2000 - Dontez says...
"Hey I think that you should put on... (Dealing
With Grief) Pray, Pray< Pray and Pray and if that
doesn't work Pray, God Bless
April 2, 2000 - Douglas says...
"I was sent to your website by a friend of mine.
I lost my son only a few weeks after you. I'm sorry for your loss, weak
as words are. I couldn't help but notice the references to mormontown.org
on your guest book. I'm doing some research on teen suicides within
the LDS community. My son was a member of the LDS Church. ...questions
are constantly there.
April 1, 2000 - Jessica says...
"I'm sooooo sorry to hear about your son. ...My out look on suicide is been somewhat subsided. I don't get to go to public school because I get made fun of. They call me the "Brain Freak" or "The Science Experiment, Gone Wrong" Just Because I'm a 15yr. old Senior. In January of this year, I lost my closest friend to suicide, I walked in right as he pulled the trigger, and I saw the fear in his eyes. I can't get that image out of my head! It was the worse thing I have ever witnessed..."
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