May 30 & 31, 2000 - Jayme
"...i am 17, and i wanted to say thank you because
the past 3 months i have really been considering suicide as the answer
to all my problems. because there is this girl that i like a lot,
i mean i more than like her, i care so much about her, but i don't know
if she likes me or not ...and i have cried myself to sleep every night for
about a month, praying that God would give me some kind of a sign, and
i have been having these nightmares that i see her with another guy and
then i come home and get a gun and... I always wake up before I pull the
trigger, and every time I have that dream I always wake up in tears.
Well, I am sorry I had to take up your time by telling you this but I figured
you were a Mom and I figured you would understand since no one else does.
Thank you so much for your time.
later - i just wanted to
say thanx again because me having someone like you to talk to helps me
a lot. ...the way i feel about this girl is different, i don't just
want to have sex with her i want to love her. i want to wait till
i am married before i have sex because i want it to be special. i
mean I am not thinking about taking my life now... Thanx again for
listening to me."
May 25, 2000 - Amy says...
"I enjoyed the beautiful pictures of your son and the
stories of his life with you. I am sorry for your terrible loss and
am going to pray for you and your family. I too lost someone to suicide.
Thank you for sharing your page."
May 25, 2000 - Candace says...
"My name is Candace. I am doing a research report about
suicide. You are probably asking your self why would someone do a report
about suicide. Well, I wanted to do my report on something I know
about, and I know about suicide. I have tried to commit suicide 2 and I
have had friends that have. I want to know his story. Can you please help
May 24, 2000 - Kim says...
"guess what? i did my speech (about suicide)
on Monday and i got an A! r ya proud? They loved it and my teacher
thought it was great that i talk to you so she gave me extra credit!!"
May 23, 2000 - Richard says...
"I am now 30 years old.
When I was 11 years old, I didn't know it then like I do now, but I was
very depressed over many things but mostly the thought that I may also
be homosexual. I was preparing myself to leave the Earth; giving
my possessions away, deciding what kind of note I would leave behind, and
how I would take my life and telling others that I wanted to kill myself.
So many times I would stand by the wide open window, four stories high,
looking down to the ground and realizing it all can end right there.
I can't remember what changed in me that I would become less depressed
and never consider taking my life again. But I do remember being
so sadly close to making that decision... I don't suppose that was
the only thing stirring in my young mind so as to draw me to such a dire
choice. Having had this experience, I can so truly empathize
and even sympathize with Jared's idea of ending the pain. I was virtually
there.... My heart goes out to you. With Love and Peace."
May 23, 2000 - Dustin says...
"A touching tribute. I mourn
for your loss. And fully understand... I could easily have been a Jared.
My cousin was a Jared. If there were healing words, I would say them.
In this case, my silence speaks for me."
May 23, 2000 - Jimmy says...
"Just checked out your site and
was deeply touched by your brave generosity and unflinching testimony.
As a 45 year old LDS man, I am in my third year of treatment for severe
depression. I was to the point of taking my own life when I reluctantly
sought help from my Bishop. It has not been easy enduring the "trial by
medicine", the counseling, admission to family and friends that I suffer
from mental illness, the break up of my marriage, loss of
employment and all the other
consequences of this decision, however, I feel that a new life has been
given to me and a new opportunity to contribute to the world. In
sharing your experiences, you too are making a tremendous gift of love
to those who may be foundering in the darkness of this insidious disease.
Although it must be very painful to allow the world to look upon your heartbreaking
wounds, much as the Savior did, I feel that you are shining a ray of hope
to many who have (or think they have) no hope of surviving, let alone enjoying
the trials that make up life. Thank you for your contribution to my life.
If there is any way I can be of service to you and yours, do not hesitate
to tell me what to do! Keep the faith, keep up the good work, and may Heavenly
Father soothe your sorrows."
May 21, 2000 - Kristy says...
"...I am 14 yrs old and my 2
friends keep talkin about tryin to kill themself. I looked at this
page and sent it to them and I myself thought a couple of times especially
today about killing myself and i don't know why but looking at this page
made me change my mind. Just like to say keep up the good work on
the page. ...I am sorry about jared. Wish i could of got to knew
him. Do you mind if i e-mail you if i need any help or anything?" (Anytime!)
May 18, 2000 - Unknown
"Hi, just wanted to say what
you are doing is great. I am a teen who has pondered and attempted
suicide on many occasions. I never thought about the pain I would
cause my family by taking my own life. I thought no one would really
miss me. I now see how much of an impact I would have on my family.
I feel your sorrow through your written words and thank
you for sharing your story.
I feel you have already saved many lives since you helped me change my
mind. I pray that your life will be filled with much joy."
May 17 & 19, 2000 - Luke
"Thanks for the warm and helpful
story about your son, Jared. I am very sorry for the loss you must
endure. My grandfather committed suicide in 1985. He was 62
years old. I still miss him. Jared's story reminded me of my
cousin Tommy who also committed suicide. Tommy was 16 years old.
I have had so much hurt and anger and confusion and mostly guilt.
I wish i could have prevented their deaths. I am 30 years old now
and my girlfriend is very suicidal (she has made several attempts).
I have called the crisis intervention hotline, called her counselor, talked
to her parents, I have even had to call the police. However, I feel
at a total loss for help. What can I do to stop her? How can
I get her to stop considering suicide as solution to her problems?
After my cousin took his life, I vowed that no one I care about
would ever do that again. And
now here I am facing suicide with the person closest to me. If she
doesn't get help, she will not survive. What kind of resources are
available for us?
And Later... Thanks for the help. I
will pick-up Dr. Quinnett's book today. And yes, there has been a
trigger in her life. Her brother was killed in a car accident 2 years
ago; I don't think she really ever grieved. I will see about counseling
for this. Thank you so much."
May 17, 2000 - Bruce says...
"I have recently created an award for people who have
a story to tell, and have shown the courage to tell it. I would like you to
accept it if you wish. Thank you for telling sharing your life with
others. This award cannot be applied for. I give it freely
to people who I feel deserve it. You are one of them Take Care"
May 15, 2000 - Brandon says...
"Hi, i don't even know you, but i was wandering if
you could help? You see, i think I am depressed, and suicidal. I am very
over weight (269 pounds), Hearing impaired, cleft palate problem, eyes
sight problem, kidney problem. I am always getting laughed at, and
can never get a girl to go out with me. What the point of going on, with
my life? ...at least all the pain and suffering would go away. Well,
i am not sure if this is the kind of stuff or question you are here for or want,
I am 14."
May 13, 2000 - Kara says...
"I'd just like to complement you on your website Jaredstory.com.
Recently, actually a month ago today, one of my best friends committed
suicide two days after his 17th birthday. Devastation and numbness
was all I felt, and someone suggested I go online and see this site. When it happened, I felt so unknown to myself, but
seeing this makes me realize that it has happened, unfortunately, to so
many people, and so many loved ones are left behind. This page was
a good way to preserve the memories of your son, and to work out your thoughts.
I wish I could make a page like this for my friend, but with computers
I basically know nothing. The site has a lot of thoughtful work put into
it, and I thought I'd just drop a line. Take care."
May 13, 2000 - Zenya says...
"thank you so much for responding to my e-mail i know
how much it must hurt a uncle of mine killed himself ...he did it over
losing his wife which still hurts im so sorry that you had to endure the
pain of losing a loved one , take care."
May 11, 2000 - Valerie says...
"I am a 25 year old mother of two. I visited your web
page today and i would like to tell you how sorry I am about your son.
I was also wondering if you knew of a sight that I could visit because
you see, This past sunday my 17 year old sister tried to kill herself.
Thank God she did not succeed but it was a very close call. She has
made a tremendous amount of improvement the past 4 days (physically). Our
family is very thankful. But I am having a really hard time dealing
with this on my own. Feelings of guilt and wondering why she didn't
call me. I would appreciate it if you were able to refer me.
Thank you." (There are many sources of help on
the 'About Suicide'
May 11, 2000 - Jennifer says...
"I don't know why the search engine brought up your
page, but I am so glad that it did. How my heart breaks for your family
when I see the photo of that precious boy and how afraid I feel when I
consider that my own child could make that same decision! I have an 11
year old boy and although life is pretty easy externally for him, he has
problems inside that are breaking his heart. He sees a psychiatrist every
week and that has helped a lot. Even when he was younger he talked about
either killing himself or wanting to shoot people. Usually he is a normal
kid who has the same problems as everyone else - and the same joys. But
then I will notice a flicker of a shadow cross his face and I wonder....
What is going on in his mind? What does he think about his life and the
worth of it? I wish I could put my arms around you and thank you for being,
somehow, strong enough to cope with the death of your son and get on with
your life and put up such an important and meaningful page. I do
not know how I could exist if such a thing happened to me. God bless you
and, most importantly, comfort you, as you wait to see your dear son in
heaven again someday."
May 10, 2000 - Tracy says...
"I think it is wonderful that you have spent the energy
on creating something that can help others. I am a divorced 39 yr
old woman with no children so I cannot imagine what it must have been like
to lose your son. I have major depressive disorder and have thought
of leaving this world many times so your site was very helpful to me.
Thanks for sharing the goodness in the world. You've made a positive
thing out of a very sad one. Peace be with you."
May 8, 2000 - Cathy says...
"im sorry about your son its a tragic story im sorry
you have to go through the pain. my best wishes."
May 6, 2000 - Jo Anna says...
"i am sorry about your loss of a son. you are
a great mom and inspiration to us all. God bless you and your family."
May 6, 2000 - JLK says...
"The heart felt story you let us know about your son
was heart teaching. I had a problem that no one could understand,
my best friend didn't even know about it. See I was so sad. I didn't know
what to do. So I thought I would kill myself but I couldn't get enough
strength to do it. So when I felt depressed I would CUT my hand a little,
so no one could see it. I thought I would feel better but turns out I only
felt worse. I didn't know why. I thought maybe someone would find out and
notice that I needed someone. It hasn't been so long ago I cut myself.
That I thought I'd go on the internet to here about other deaths. Well,
I seen Jared's story and thought I would just to read cause there was nothing
better to do. I want to thank you for putting up this website for
it has done a ot for me. I know now that I should go and talk to my best
friend tonight and tell her that I have a problem a BIG PROBLEM. Thanks
again you just saved my life. Thanks, JLK
P.S. I hope you understand that Jared's death was
a great lose to all not only you. He has saved anothers life by giving
May 4, 2000 - Ashley says...
"...When I was in 7th grade I was very unhappy. In
the summer of 99 I tried to kill myself and boy it almost worked.
After that I had to stay in the hospital for a couple of weeks. I
can't believe I did but it hurts me to think the I am not the only one.
People always beat me up and I feel hurt but now that I know I have a problem
I can stop. He was only about 14 I imagine. Well thank u"
May 2, 2000 - Alisha says...
"Hello, my name is Alisha and I am from Missouri.
Right now I am a senior in high school but taking all college classes.
In my advanced composition class I am researching suicide due to several
recent suicides in my home town. I was wondering if you had any statistics
about this horrible disease and would you be willing to share them with
me. ...I am looking at suicide at an unusual angle and it is hard
for me to find some information that I need. Thank you very much
for you time and consideration."
May 2, 2000 - Heartb says...
"how come jared felt like no one loved him how come
he didn't tell no 1 how he felt. he seems like a really cool guy
and i am a 13/f i would of loved 2 know him! ...can u send me why
jared committed suicide...? (You can find your